i might be losing my mind

it's amazing how restless i've been. the transition from working 10 hour days to not working at all leaves me with my thoughts and my hormones and right now my brain is going crazy.

i saw the woody allen film 'manhattan' today and the main character's narcissism is one of the main ideas that i pulled from it. at 42 his search for a relationship leads him back to a 17 year old girl whom worshiped him as this  'intellectual'. it really got me thinking about what men and women value in potential partners, lovers, and in marriage. i can't help but start to wonder if the act of wanting to love and to be loved is inherently selfish.

maybe i missed the point of the film. also i can't help but wonder if there is any coincidence that woody allen ended up leaving his wife for his adopted daughter later in life (or maybe it had already happened at the time of directing this movie).

i've found odd ways to bide my time so that i can leave my room. i've been writing a bunch of letters.. and subsequently used up the last of my latin popstar postage stamps lmao. 

I've also played late-night croquet with tyler. the other interns are in Sante Fe New Mexico camping.

 

annnnd i dyed my hair pink. i think i might have to bleach a bit more though my roots are getting longgg. 

chickasaw national recreation area in Sulfur, Oklahomaaa

Six hours in the car with Tyler at the wheel... he loves to sing Johnny Cash songs

Taking "flattering" pictures is highly over-rated...

We passed by this house with a yard full of random stuff that was "for sale". i really wish i had a wooden bat, i would have paid money to have a go at some of the stuff that was there!

In the field doin fireplots! 

Jess and I shared a hotel room at a hotel and casino... lmao! look at my hilarious sandal- tan.

Finally throwing out those boots... so ends the saga of the 2 dollar leather boots.

Waking up at 5 to start fieldwork at 6... saw some nice sunrises

Bruce is our supervisor. He is really fucking cool and has worked in fire mgmt all over the U.S (in zion and bryce canyon as well!). i told him i was going to take a few candid shots of us doing work for my blog thinking he would think i am crazy but he took pictures of us as well because he keeps a daily email list and sends his friends pictures everyday as well! he said "look at my slave labor!" as he took my picture... lol. 

Bruce brews his own beer. He usually likes dark stuff but made a light ale for us to enjoy! He calles it hoodoo brew after the hoodoo rock formations at Bryce Canyon 

he also brewed some thai sun tea

work work work! we earned ourselves some elk burgers that Bruce had caught earlier in the year.

went for a walk and i found an apricot tree!

so cute!

 

 walk walk walkin and listening to the pixies and portishead and the ramones 

America's love affair with gasoline and the automobile

Jess, Jeff (my fellow interns) and I went to a route 66 festival in amarillo, tx which is about an hour away from borger. some restaurants were having a route 66 special in which, if you bought a 5 dollar wristband, you were able to purchase an item at the cost people would pay back when route 66 was a very popular highway for travelers. we enjoyed 15 cent hotdogs and 75 cent chili! I also got cantaloupe flavored gellato. 

Jess is an avid horse rider but she is also really into cars and motorcycles (she has a motorcycle license and used to drive a harley). some of the cars were cool shapes but it was cute seeing how excited she got over each car!

I thought this one looked like a dildo :D

this one was my favorite! 

Below is a trip we took a week or so ago to an outdoor art display.. of about 10 cadillacs stuck halfway into the ground and covered in graffiti.... i don't think it was very interesting per se, but i enjoyed tagging the cars with my name :D

that was a bit of a flashback... back to today BEFORE the car show!

sleepy eva watching the cars pass on the way to amarillo

 went to an antique shop.... and i ended up buying a piece of vintage luggage... dont make fun but i absolutely adore it! XP

Also I dont know if you read in the last blurb that i had got a really cheap pair of leather boots to combat all of the spikey cacti and shit i was walking through.. bc i was pulling thorns and shit out of my brand new trainers that i bought for hiking here.... well funny story about those shoes....

here are the boots right when i bought them... and i was so happy because they were so cheap! less than 2.50!

well sometimes you get what you pay for.... although the shoes were holding up against thorns and such i suppose the glue that held the shoes together was poorly done (which may or may not be why they were donated to the salvation army). and the bottoms of the shoes fell off completely and we had to tape them up so i could continue through the rest of the day... it is hilarious now but at the time i was really mad!